This Girl Is On Fire

So it has been a tough few months for my family.  My little sister miscarried earlier this month.  It is one of the hardest things our family has been through. Some may wonder why I was so upset or why I was feeling so glum for so long but not only was I so so so sad for the loss of this child who was to be my niece or nephew but I was totally devastated for the pain my sis and her hubs were going though.  I know how much they want a child and how hard they have had to work at it.  I am inspired by their faith and committment to Christ through this terrible tragedy.  It is so hard to see people who take pregnancy for granted and have babies in terrible conditions and then see my sis and bro who so  want a baby and work so hard at it and would do anything to have a child go through something so horrible.  It is something that I am working on praying about so that my heart is not bitter.  I know good things will happen for them and they will get the desires of their heart in God's own perfect time but that doesn't always make it easy when dealing with such a delicate loss. 
During this rough time, I had a spring break and really just needed to get away from KC for a while and try to relax.  This has been an extremely tough year for me in many ways and I just needed a break from all of it.  I was able to go to South Carolina with my mom and we had as good of a time as we could with both of us missing my sis and wishing she was with us.  I was glad to get away but also glad to get back home.  Right before I left, I interviewed for the PreK position at Davidson next year.  It was tough for me because I was up against some very close friends and I didn't want any of us to get hurt by not getting the job.  I really really wanted it though.  I just needed a change.  I am pleased to report that after an hour long interview, I was notified within the next 30 min. that I was being offered the position.  I was elated but it was also bittersweet as I was bummed for my friends.  As I have always said, God always puts me where he wants me so I believe in my heart that this is what he wanted for me.  I am so grateful for the opportunity ahead and know that great things are to come next year.  On another very exciting note, I am in the process of purchasing a new home not far from my current home.  It is a much bigger house and much much nicer than my current one.  I have worked hard for 13 years and saved up and I think I have earned it.  I am so excited to be able to have my friends over to hang out (my current house is way to small to do this).  God is so good and his blessings are overflowing in my life.  I cannot wait to see what else he has in store for me if I trust in him.  I had a great night out with my oldest and dearest friend last night.  We chatted for 3 and a half hours about everything under the sun.  I miss her so much.  We def. do not see each other enough.  That is going to change.  I am very thankful for all my friends and family right now esp. the ones who have been there for me in the good and bad times, not judging or talking about me behind my back.  I am thankful for the true people in my life.  They are the ones who matter the most.  I will keep you all posted on any new happenings with the house or new job.

Till next time,
Beck