Hopes, Dreams, and the Bucket List

Lots to say.   Here goes nothing.  So after much prayer and consideration, I have put in an inquiry about adopting a child.  It took a long time and a lot of prayer to come to this decision.  I have wanted to have a child for a long time but being single and doing that is kinda hard.  I thought about artificial insemination but decided against that for multiple reasons.  I decided that there are so many kids in the world that need a loving home, and I have that to offer.  I am also in the middle of contemplating my future as a teacher at Davidson.  Morale is so low and it is not the school/job I once loved so much.  I am looking into other opportunities but one thing is for sure, I am unhappy currently so I need to do something.  Also, due to all the stress at work, I have put on weight and am nearing my heaviest ever.  It is frustrating and depressing.  I promised I would not let myself get this way again.  I have resolved to get my life and health back on track.  Lucky for me, Jake wants to turn his basement into a workout area so we will work at it together.  We both want to change our health for the better.  I am working on getting my house in order too. I have cleaned and emptied the dining room and am going to take it one room at a time.  It is time to purge my life of junk.  I also have a ton of clothes to donate so I need to get that organized.  Dad and I were talking about renovating and building on to my house in the spring.  I realize that if I am going to be single and live here, I want to make it something I am proud of and that I can have friends over to.   So as you can see, I have a ton of hopes and dreams.  I seem to change my mind daily about this or that but these things, I think I have finally settled on.  At 35 years old, it is time to live my life and quit waiting around for something to live it for me.  I have to do what will make me happy.  On a lighter note, I am thinking of taking guitar lessons or youtubing and teaching myself to play.  I also want to get a good camera and try out photography.  Why not?  I am going to do all the things I have ever wanted.  Time for me to start that bucket list.  Since yesterday was Thanksgiving, I just wanted to end with all the things I am thankful for in no particular order:  my parents who taught me to go for my dreams and not let anything stop me, my sister who is my best friend and knows when to cry with me or when to tell me to quit feeling sorry for myself and make my life better, my gram for all the wonderful stories and love, my bro in law for always keeping me on my toes and for loving my sister the way she deserves, Payton for being such a great kid and loving me like his stepmom, Jake for knowing just what to say and when to say it, my church family for their love and acceptance, my friends for standing by me and listening, my dog Barks for his unconditional love,  and most of all for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ who loves me despite the mess that I am.

Guess this is it for now.  Till next time,

Beck