I Will Not Accept That

It is the end of June and I feel like I haven't even had a summer yet.  I have been busy teaching summer school K2K.  My kids are little, immature, and onery but I am actually really enjoying the K2K experience.  I love knowing who some of the kiddos are before the fall.  My sis is in town and it has been so fun spending time with her and the fam.  We went to Ray LaMontagne at Starlight and he was amazing.  He even played my song--Let it be me!  I was so happy!  Love spending time with sissy!  Sadly, cousin Brent passed away this week and we went to his funeral yesterday.  Very sad for his wife, two kids, Uncle Ron, and sister Cheryl.  Breaks my heart to see them all so sad and missing their Bubba.  He was such a good man too and it is hard to understand the whys of this.  We just have to have faith that God knows and we have to trust in him.  I had a great time last weekend at Payton's bday party with the Dollins clan.  I can't believe Pay is 8--seems like just yesterday I was changing his diapers and he was latched onto my leg everywhere I took him.  I miss those times.  A recent email from a former person in my life made me reevaluate everything I stood for.  It made me look at myself and the values that I have and then after careful thought and prayer, I came to the conclusion that forgiveness does not mean fellowship.  I can forgive someone for wronging me but not allow them back into my life. After all, light has no fellowship with darkness and this person was a cloud of darkness in my life at one time.  I can forgive but not forget.  I will not accept anything less than what I deserve.  I won't accept someone telling me that they have made mistakes but that is what life is about right:?---Ummmm no!  Life is about learning from the mistakes we may make.  Was that your attempt at an apology?  If so, it wasn't very good.  I forgive but I will never ever forget. 

Till next time,

Beck