Sick and tired of being sick and tired!!!

So thought I should update everyone on my current health crisis!  On Monday night, I was having severe stomach pains and bloating (third time this has happened and the 2nd time this month) so my mom took me to the ER.  After sitting in the er for over an hour, I began to vomit over and over from the pain.  After another half an hour in the waiting room, they took me back to a curtain.  After another 30 min of nurses and docs coming in to look at me and talk to me, they gave me some pain meds.  The did a cat scan.   They told me my jueojenum (sp) was swollen and irritated, a bile duct in my gall bladder was swollen and irritated and that I had fluid in my belly.  They decided to admit me.  After a long night of restless sleep, I spent most of Tuesday with no food as they were trying to decide what tests to run on me.  Finally at 2:30 in the afternoon I was allowed to eat.  A doctor came to see me at 5:30pm and told me that the next day they would be doing an MRCP (MRI of my belly) and a pervic ultrasound.  I was like ok.  So after another restless night in a hospital bed, (and me having to call my dad to bring my wrist band to me at 1:30am because my carpal tunnel had made my hand go numb and hurt so bad that I could not sleep) they came to get me a 9:30 for the MRCP.  They had given me ativan to calm me down but it didn't work and I went into a screaming fit when they put me in the MRI tube.   They pulled me back out and gave me more ativan and waited 15 more minutes.  I still felt like I was gonna freak but I knew I had to get through it and that I did with thoughts of my lil sis and her baby.  I just focused on that and prayed for God to help me make it through.  After what seemed like an eternity (40 min.)  they pulled me out and took me back upstairs to my pop.  Next I waited for about 30 more min. until they came to get me for the next test which I thought would be a breeze.  Once I got down for what I thought was just an ultrasound, I was informed that once they located the fluid in my belly they would drain it with a needle/catheder.  I tried not to hyperventilate.  After 3 different ladies had ultrasounded my belly, they announced that there was not enough fluid to drain. (Big sigh of relief here!!!)  They wheeled me back up to my pops who was waiting and praying that I would make it through the procedure (he knew the whole time that they were planning to drain my tummy but didn't want to scare me by telling me).  Again we waited until the doc came in to tell me the results of the MRCP.  He said that the swelling had gone down and everything looked good.   (OK great, now what is wrong with me?)  They wanted me to have another test called and enteroscopy (a camera down my throat into my small intestine to look at it and take a biopsy of the lining) .  Sounds like a total blast huh?   I said ok let's do it.  Ummm, sorry I can't squeeze you in until Monday.   Gee thanks!  I explained that I wanted to go back to work and the doc said I could leave if there was no stomach pain.  I wanted to get the heck out of the hospital.  He left and so did my dad and I waited for discharge papers.  My momma came to pick me up and I called the nurse to tell her I was ready to blow this popscicle stand.  They got my papers and let me out and me and momma went to get the 19 (okay 3) medicines that put me on.  My appt. for the enteroscopy is scheduled for next Friday morning where my mom or dad will have to drive me since I will be sedated during the procedure and unable to drive afterwards.   Since I've been out, my left hand and wrist have swollen up and are in intense pain.  I think the IV leaked into the tissues in my arm and wrist and that is causing the swelling and pain.  Hope it goes away soon!  While in the hospital, my dad came to my house and took care of my dog and my dishes (pretty great huh?) and my mom doted on me and has tried to stock me with  things I am able to eat (she's the best!) since they put me on a low fiber diet.  I am ticked about this because alot of my healthy foods, (salads, fresh fruits and veggies, wheat bread, etc.. ) are high in fiber.  Also I've been instructed (by my dad) to take it easy with no major workouts.  I'm hoping this doesn't put too much of a damper on my weight loss plan.  I am trying to eat as healthy as possible without taking in too much fiber.  I don't want to let my team down.  Praying that all goes well this next week and that the test shows something next Friday (nothing too serious just something that is easily treated) so I can stop wondering.  Thanks to all of you for the calls, texts, emails, flowers, visits, and prayers!   I love you and am blessed to have you all in my life.  I am also extremely blessed to have the most amazing parents a girl could ask for.  They take good care of me and love me so much.  I would have been even more of a wreck had they not been here to take care of me and keep me calm. (except for the air bubble drama and the freak out in the MRI machine!)  Quit laughing dad!  I love you both and am so thankful for all that you do for me.  I hope you both know how much I appreciate you.  It's times like these where you realize who and what is important in life.   Thanks to all of my important ones!  You know who you are!  <3 p="">
Till next time,

Beck

Fat Be Gone

     So my mom keeps hounding me to post more often.  I am going to make my best effort to post monthly.  I started the Pound Plunge Weight Loss challenge with my cousin and a few friends and I am down 9.6 lbs in two weeks.  I am on my way. After weighing in, I went straight over to the gym and worked out.  2 miles on the treadmill and 1 mile on the bike for a total time of 47 min.  I am also doing weight watchers.   Plus on Mondays, I am trying Yoga.  I hated it but paid for two more sessions to force myself to go.  I am so proud of my resolve and dedication to this.  I vow to lose 80 lbs even if it takes me a year.   My hope is to lose it by July 9th.  That will be 6 mos. and I think that is a reasonable goal as long as I keep at this.  My goal is to lose 3-4 lbs a week.  I am so thankful that my cousin asked me to do this because it was just the motivation that I needed. 
     In other news, Sunday I woke up to a broken fridge.  I had to miss church but lucky for me my Aunt had a fridge for me and my dad was able to help move the old one out and the new one in.  Not sure what I would do without my pops.  He is always there when I need him.  So tonight after the gym, I went to the store and replaced all my healthy groceries that I had lost in the broken fridge fiasco.  So glad that God makes a way for things.  Even though I missed church on Sun. morning, my momma, pops, grammie, and I all went to my Uncle's church.  Technically it is not my Uncle's anymore as he is retired and another great man has taken over.  However, it will always be Uncle Ron's church to me.  It was good to see all the family and friends there and be in the presence of the Holy Spirit. 
     On the school front, I have applied for PreK in the district for next year.  I would prefer the PreK at Davidson but I know God will place me where he wants me.  I am also taking the Early Childhood Sped test on Sat. with Lisa and fingers crossed that goes well so it will add to my options. 
     Sadly a friend from my church passed away last night.  I am very sad for his wife and family.  I know what it feels like to lose someone you love so much.  It is an ache that is so deep, you feel like it will never go away.  All I can say is it gets better with God.  I am praying that he will comfort Bro. Ron's family and give them peace.
     Lastly, my sis and bro n law are on Round Two of their first treatment to try and have a baby.  They should know soon if it worked.  If not, it looks like they will be going the route of IVF which is very costly.  Again I know, God will make a way for them.  He always provides.  I am praying it is in his will for them to have a child soon.   I want a baby niece!  A nephew would be good too!  ;-)
     I guess this is all for now.  I will leave you with this.  The other night, I had just finished doing 1 full hour on the treadmill and when I came upstairs, Payton was standing there.  I told him I just did an hour of workout and he said, "You look skinnier already esp. in your arms!"   Gotta love that kid!

Till next time,

Beck

New Year New Me 2013

Guess I had better start this year off right and blog huh?  As my mom would say, "You haven't blogged in  a while!"  So this one is for you mom!  So after much thought and prayer, I have come up with my New Year's Resolutions for 2013: 1. Do not depend on anyone else for my happiness.(I seem to do this too much now and my disappointment builds with every let down.)  If I am responsible for my own happiness, I can blame no one but myself if things don't do the way I want them.    2. Be a better, more loving, kind, thoughtful person to others.  (We talk about this alot in church but this year, I am really going to try to do this more and to not excpect anything in return.)  3. Make better life choices for my health and get back to the person I know I can be. (I am more unhealthy than ever and weigh my highest weight in my life currently.  I know I will feel so much better and have better luck with #1 if I take my health back.)  4. Be more thankful for all the blessings as well as the tribulations in my life.(It is very easy to be thankful when things are going good in life but not so easy when things are rough.  I am going to use those opportunities to draw closer to God.)  5. Speak my mind more but never in a hurtful way.   (Often times, I want to make my point and don't care who I hurt to do that.  From now on, while speaking how I feel, I am going to be conscious of others feelings in doing so.)  6. Put God first in all things.(Things would be so much easier if I just did this.)  7. Tell friends and family that I love them more. (I have the most amazing friends and famiily and I don't tell or show them enough how much I love them.)  8. Be active and not sedentary. (When I think of how much time I spend in the recliner or laying around watching tv, I am sickened.  Life is what we make of it and I am making it a waste.)  9. Do two things I have always wanted to do but never took the time. (I am trying to learn to play the guitar and take some photography classes.  I've always wanted to do those two things.)  10. Write a book.(I actually started this a few days ago.  I am writing a memoir from my 13 years so far as a teacher.  Look for it to be finished and published in Dec. of 2013!)  There are a lot of other things I want to do but this is a good starting list and definitely the most important ones for my happiness and well being.   To all my friends and family reading this, I love you!  Look for updates this year in my 2013 journey to happiness and great health!

Till next time,

Beck