How do you fix a broken heart?

My heart is broken into a million pieces  I am trying so hard to "just move on" as everyone says.  It is just so painful.  I told Jake to move out on Friday.  I just felt tired of feeling like the only reason he was here was for a free place to stay.  I didn't feel loved or appreciated.  I hated all the fighting.  I was resentful for the things he didn't do and should have done and it created more tension between us and so finally it boiled over until I could take it no more and I told him I wanted him out.  I want to be with someone who loves me with all of their heart, who wants to marry me, have a family with me, help me and be my partner in life, laugh with me, and grow old with me.  Jake and I were not going towards those things and so it was time for us to move on.  I still love Jake and I hope that we both find happiness.  One of the hardest things about this break-up is how it will affect Payton.  I do not want him hurt in all of this.  I know my time with him will be less and it tears me up inside because I love him so much.  He is like my own child and that is how I think of him.  I hope that we continue to have a relationship beause it would really hurt me if we did not.  I know that I have lots of friends and family who will help me through this.  I also know that now more than ever is the time when I need to stay strong in my faith and lean on the Lord because he can and will bring me through it. 

Till next time........


Beck